With a lifelong affinity for music, Colt Ryder Stone brings his past lives right back into the present. For many years, he struggled with his mental health, and finding these memories from his soul's past has helped him find that even in the worst of lives, there are still great things to be found.His music is a direct product of this. Colt Ryder Stone writes about all of his experiences, having songs about past life lovers, as well as those who have mistreated him in those same lives.Now, he has the power to make himself closure for things he could never quite get over. In writing music, he has found an outlet for not only these past events, but current struggles he faces. As he faces the world, so too does his music.

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We grew up together, my friend
Do you remember all those years ago?
The way evacuations had us flee
With a tune that we still know, you and meYou and I, we work together
On research here, at the institute
And you are the best, many others would agree
And you're the only person who truly gets meYou are such a sweetheart
Doing everything you can for me
You have all of my love
And every pretty melodyI wanna sing a love song
As if we're in a musical
I wanna sing a love song
As if we're the lead rolesIt goes kinda like, mmmOn a dangerous expedition
I took a tumble, way far down
You were with me, you knew I was in pain
And you stayed by my side as my bone rotted awayNow my arm is partly metal
And that is all thanks to you
I wish I could repay your kindness one day
But for now, all I have is my love for youYou are such a sweetheart
Doing everything you can for me
You have all of my love
And every pretty melodyI wanna sing a love song
As if we're in a musical
I wanna sing a love song
As if we're the lead rolesIt goes kinda like, mmmLike, "I love you so, more than you'll ever know"

A heat rises
To the surface of my skin
Everything about it should make
My stomach churnThe heat rises
From the core of my gut
Everything about it makes
My stomach churnBlisters on my skin
Burning, deep withinBursting, bloody mess
My love for you, confessedBile's pooling
In the back of my throat
To cough it up might rot
My teethYour bile's pooling
In the hole between my thighs
If only you'd break past it
And rot through meI want you in my core
I want to beg for moreMake me a bloody mess
And have not one regretI want you to
Rot through me
And have no
SympathyRavage me until I break
And spill inside of me
Then, stand up
And watch as I decay at your feetAll I can think of
Is you
It's almost as if you're rotting
My thoughtsMy joints feel looser
My jaw's not tight
I fear my body parts might
Start to fall offThe fear is eating me
It has long and sharp teethBut nonetheless
It is with you I am obsessedI want you to
Rot through me
And have no
SympathyRavage me until I break
And spill inside of me
Then, stand up
And watch as I decay at your feetIs this what I want?
I don't think that I'd like to die
I don't know what I'm thinking,
Why my mind isn't rightI don't know who I am anymore
Or why I fantasize
About my rotting death
As I look into your eyesA heat rises
To the surface of my skin
Everything about it should make
My stomach churnI want you to
Rot through me
And have no
SympathyRavage me until I break
And spill inside of me
Then, stand up
And watch as I decay at your feet

Please don't worry about me
Don't you worry, my friend
I don't plan to mess this up
I don't want my life to endI don't want to run
From the radiation
And I know others that
Share my sentimentsI don't want to die
And mark my words, I will not
Won't succumb
To the rotEven when I'm deathly ill
I find my way out
And I'll share my findings
With those who careI can't believe anyone
Would worry 'bout someone like me
Cuz I'm not going
AnywherePlease don't worry about me
Don't you worry, my friend
I don't plan to mess this up
I don't want my life to endDon't you dare mourn me too soon
I don't plan on leaving this earth
My purpose here is immunity,
It was the reason for my birthI shared my research
With one of my friends
He's just like me
But closer to the endMaybe I caught him too late
Or maybe it's just his time
But I know how he feels
And all of his feelings are realSo even if he's deathly ill
I'll help him find a way out
And I'll share my findings
With our friends, who careHe can't believe anyone
Would worry 'bout someone like him
But he's worse off than me
It's clear as day, I can seeBut I can treat his symptoms
The same way that I treat mine
And I can keep us both alive
We will be just finePlease stop looking at me
As if I'm gonna die
I can see it in your eyes
You're worried 'bout my lifePlease stop whispering
About what to do with my dear
It doesn't end here
My story doesn't end herePlease don't worry about me
Don't you worry, my friend
I don't plan to mess this up
I don't want my life to endDon't you dare mourn me too soon
Please, don't mourn me, my friend
I'm not going anywhere
This is not the endThis is not the end, it is not the end

Hey, don't you know?
Nothing will ever come between us
And I'd never let you goHey, don't you know?
You don't have to be so scared
Of me ever letting goBecause I would rather die
Than ever have to give you to somebody elsePlease know that I need you in my life
If I give you up, send me straight to hellCuz the gods would strike me down, I can tellEver since I found you
Everything seems to be in bloom
I don't care if it's just your glowing eyes
Lighting up the roomWhen everything withers
Under your sickness
I find that I'm not scared of youEver since I found you
Everything seems to be in bloom
I don't care if it's just your glowing eyes
Lighting up the roomWhen everything withers
Under your sickness
I find that I'm not scared of youWhen everything withers
Under your sickness
I find that I'm so in love with you

You were a person before this
I bet you had a lot of friends
I wonder what they were like
And I hope they loved you 'til the very endYou were human, and now you're kind of not
But even still, you love just like me
I bet you learned that from those you once knew
And I bet they were all really sweetDo you miss them?
Do you wish they didn't die?
Do you miss them?
Do you think about the afterlife?Have you ever wondered
Where they might be?
Do you wonder, just like me?Because I wonder what it would be like
In a world where I knew your friends
Because I wonder what could be true
If this wasn't what our world had come toI wonder, what colors were all their eyes?
And which of them had the biggest nose?
I wonder what kind of food they used to like
And even if you tell me, I'll never truly knowDo you think that they'd like the institute?
Y'know, if they were here?
More important, do you think they'd like me?
Wait, no, it'll still be unclearBut do you miss them?
Do you wish they didn't die?
Do you miss them?
Do you think about the afterlife?Have you ever wondered
Where they might be?
Do you wonder, just like me?Because I wonder what it would be like
In a world where I knew your friends
Because I wonder what could be true
If this wasn't what our world had come toI wonder all the time what it'd be like
In a world not plagued by the radiation
Would we still know each other, or maybe, would we not?
And would you still be mine, without the rot?My love

You wanna sing a love song
As if we're in a musical
You wanna sing a love song
As if we're the lead rolesYou want it like,
"I love you so, more than you'll ever know"I told you not to worry
I told you, "just stay calm"
I know my kind of research
Really sets you offI really wish it didn't
And that you'd realize
That underneath the radiation
And his glowing eyesHe's still a person
Who misses his old life
He's still a person
He doesn't want me to dieI wanna stay alive, alive

Radioactive creature in the night
Waiting for me to find you
Radioactive creature in the night
But truly, you found me, tooCreature in my heart, oh
Please don't deny me this
A lifetime of fantasies of loveCreature in my heart, oh
Just another second, please
Don't let me make my life a lack thereofI have to perfect my studies
If I don't, my death is likely
Unless I want you to rot me alive,
I have to figure out immunityI spend days
Slaving away
Hoping that I won't die to youI want nothing more than for us both to stay aliveI know they tell me,
"Run away,"
But I don't want to run far from youIf I didn't have you, I don't know how I'd surviveRadioactive creature in my heart
I think I've made a new breakthrough
Radioactive creature in my heart
And it's all thanks to youCreature, oh, my love, please,
I know you won't deny me this
A lifetime of being by your sideCreature, oh, my love, please
Hold me even closer, now
My promise to you is that I'll surviveEvery day
I slave away
Knowing that I can't die to youIf I work hard, I know that I'll stay aliveI know I've been told to
Run away
But I don't want to leave your sideAnd I know that you'd never want to leave minePlease don't worry about me
Don't you worry, my friend
I don't plan to mess this up
I don't want my life to endPlease don't use my words against me
I didn't mean to fuck this up
I didn't plan to die like this
But here I amEvery day
I slaved away
I don't know where I went wrongBut I know it wasn't your fault, it was mineNow I lay here,
Rotting away
I hope my legacy can live onI don't think anyone deserves to die this way